End of Blogging?

Having my finger touching the keyboard and wanted to start blogging about something, it suddenly occurs to me that I have nothing to write about. I have tons of things to say, thing that stuck in my mind and I do have a lot of unfinished journal that still waiting me to put an ending to it but why do I suddenly felt so empty. I so wanted to write about my trip back to my family to help up on moving to new house, I wanted to write about how I misses the old house and how I stay up all night just staring at my old room before the day I moved out. I even wanted to write about my work and how thing got so tied up in a mess that even I myself couldn't untied it. Having said all that, I didn't know what I am anymore these days. Thing that I shouldn't be worried and it somehow affect my mood and I somehow go crazy and cut my hair in Mohawk style with a bald line like Mike Tyson. I thought that I will get screw up big time with my boss but they like it eventually and said that if I go for interview for the post Art Director, I might get the job just because of my hair. Anyhow, back to blogging... is this really the end of blogging. Given the time off, I somehow couldn't find the appropriate word to express out my feelings or even couldn't think of anything to write. My friends say that I only write blog if I am emotionally gone crazy or depress. Is it a good signing that I rarely blog anymore these days. Even some of the good blogger that I like to read from time to time have stop writing anymore. Have we somehow lost interest in blogging or is blogging season have just past and I haven't aware of it. I don't know about myself... should I continue blogging about meaningless stuff anymore and focus on something else. Hmm… we'll see how it goes.

Being Confirm .. Yippeee.....

When it come to a sudden certain point of time, we tend to look back and look how far we have gone and how much we had change along the journey to some yada yada extend. Yesterday, after working for 3 month, I've been confirm and thankfully, I've been place in a position that I can officially say that I am moving up one notch to become a Project Manager. I was given a role as a Project Lead and although this doesn't seem much for some who have work for 1 year plus as a programmer but I am for once happy to have that title because I seriously earn it and I am slowly moving up with more hard work and commitment. However, when I look back one year ago, when I start work and how I perform in my previous and current job, I was actually surprise of what I have done and achieve so far. I was never the kind that is confident enough to say that I did a good job or perform well or was it because I’ve listen to many criticisms from other people on how bad my stuff is.

I was told from one of my ex-colleague that when I step off from that company, I will never survive or I would not last long in one company because he says I was cheap and naïve in some sort of ways. Some even critic that all I do is complaint and never got my work done and I will never deserve what I want in the end. Most of the critic makes me unease and it make me wonder, are they all right at one point? Back then, in my previous company, my team successfully delivery 1.4 million projects and I single hand did all the design, documentation, PR, managing, presentation and contribute my programming skill with my team but why still I not get the recognition from other people. I left my company thinking where I did wrong and then I enter my current company.

It was hard at first, but I did nothing much but continue expanding my knowledge and continue my normal working procedure as what I did in my previous company and to think that in just 3 month, they somehow give back my confident and give me something for what I worth and also beleiving in me for what I've done. In the end, when I look back at my past, all I can do is laugh at it and smile. Not because of what other say wrongly about me, and I don't need to prove myself to them or anybody. I will still keep moving forward and hopefully I will reach my destination of becoming somebody. Somebody who is not afraid of what is thrown to him and somebody will change a future for a better cause and having a life worth living for. I congrat myself for being this far and having this role.. WOO HOOOOoooooo.....