How to SURVIVE the company HR BITCH!!!

I couldn‘t wake up this morning, feeling kinda restless and angry over the fact that my company stupid ugly HR bitch still nagging on me yesterday. Actually, this time, it is entirely my fault because I always late to work for 15 to 30 minutes. The reason is because; I like to come in early to work and went out for breakfast. However, I still couldn‘t get over the fact that this is a software company, where me and my colleagues always works until very late at night and couldn‘t make up the time for like 30 minutes in the morning. We even come back to work at the weekend and suddenly my HR bitch accuse us of wasting company electricity and even scold us that she didn‘t believe in working late. As if we all plan to work late or even come back on the weekend. Compare to us, she always late to work and always sharp on time to go back and that also she scolds us for “Goyang Kaki” (lazy) where else we have been working our ass off to finish the entire project. There was this case when, I particular have to meet the clients and was not in the office, my HR bitch go all the way to the director and accuse me for going to the client place for fun. Luckily, my project manager was there to defend me. I still couldn‘t get over the fact that my company management didn‘t do anything about it. Everybody in my company hate that ugly bitch and she know it. Tonight, our company threw us a party for successfully complete the entire project and to make the matter worst, that HR bitch plan a karaoke contest and ask about our opinion. None of us like it and we ask whether we could have a normal casual party but guess what she did after that? She came to us and says whoever didn‘t attend or didn‘t sing at the party will deduct 50 dollar from our salary. So, you see, working in a company that has this kind of HR bitch. How we ever survive? CURSE THAT BITCH…

I'm in Shock but HAPPY for the first time...

It was my birthday, and I thought that I was going to celebrate it by myself. However, felt kind of bad for throwing my colleague aside and celebrate by myself, so I decided to join them for lunch at the food court. I felt disappointed because I was tempted to eat this delightful lasagna which I have my sight on for the past few weeks. However, as we all reach the food court, as usual, I will book some sits and wait for my colleagues to come. To my horror, my program manager calls me and say that we have to be in the client‘s place urgently. I was bump at first but what the heck, so I rush to my program manager car and prepare to go. As we went half way, she forgets to take something, so we have to turn back. She then later asks one of my colleagues to buy some breads and eat on our way there while she go and take their stuff. I entered the bread shop and buy myself all the nice and expensive bread, since it was my birthday. As me and my colleague walked out from the shop, I noticed he entered a fancy restaurant. My first though was, “Could it be…? I entered the restaurant and was shock to see half of my company people was there wishing me happy birthday. I was touch. Nobody ever organized or even celebrated my birthday before. Even if there was a small party but something always missing… The cake was wrong, I wasn‘t feeling any good, my friends always make the wrong stuff and worst of all, my friends would usually ask me to organize my own party since nobody teach them how to buy cake and not their kind of stuff to do this for me. However, that day, seeing all my colleagues there, for the first time, I was really happy, speechless to be exact. The lunch was fantastic and the cake…CHOCOLATE, my favorite and my perfect birthday cake. Everything seems too perfect to be true. Although I didn‘t expect much on that day, but I was overwhelm. My supervisor treated me one jug of beer the day before my birthday and I was surprise that even he was aware of my birthday. The company director also celebrate with all of us too, touch by the troubles my program manager and project manager went trough to organize the whole event and the one thing that really important to me was, my technical team colleagues was there celebrating with me. However, the one thing that spoil the day was, my HR manager was a total bitch that day. I get scolded from her again for no reason. She just “Keith…come to my room. Keith, you are so arrogant. Get out from my room.“ Seriously, until today, I still couldn‘t understand, why she would say such a thing. Anyway, with what my colleagues just did for me, hell with my HR manager. It was a good birthday and who ever knew that the saying “Never expect the expected” turn out to be the first good thing that ever happened to me. I‘m turning 23 this year, and I hope every person that I care most will have a good life and I am glad that we ever cross path in this life.

Confuse over YADA! YADA! YADA!

YADA! YADA! YADA! Although my English is bad, I‘m still going to write…haha. My BAD! Anyhow, our project finished and I‘m feeling kinda bored right now because I don‘t really have anything to do aside from worrying whether I will be involve in the coming project. I felt kinda left out when I wasn‘t call to the meeting for the new project although there weren‘t much for me to contribute anyway. Mostly is technical stuff and most of my colleagues doesn‘t think that I‘m up to their standard. BUMMER! I was thrown out to do change management instead because there weren‘t any dumb-ass left in team who would do this kind of stuff but me. Not that I mind at first but it is really de-motivating because it felt like I‘m not part of the team anymore. Most of the time, I would prefer to spend my times with the technical team but recently, I have to attend meetings and events to launch our product where else my colleague will spend their time debugging the systems. I am afraid that in the end, I felt that I didn‘t contribute anything and scare of what people might think less of me. Being with the change management team, it actually make me felt that I was important, it was the first time that in a meeting, I was ever part of it, they pay attention to me, and listen to what I have to say. However, in my own technical team, I would personally think that I being treat like dirt. Nobody ever trusted me on a module or my programming skill. The only thing that they ever talk to me was, ask to draw this, calculate the food price, drive to lunch, book table and gossiping about my company people, documentation and ask me to attend useless meeting. Sometime, I am confused whether I should be in a technical team. Sometimes, I wonder whether I entered the correct line of works. Being in a change management of any management is not actually that bad but, I enter this company as a programmer and enter on the same time with the rest of the programmers. For once, I wanted to be part of the team, mainly because I think I am drawn to them as friends instead of colleague. I might consider management thing when the right time have come. However, I can‘t really stand the situation right now. Being left out and pretend to be happy about it. It felt like high school deja-vu again. Grrr…

Graduate, Friends and Jobs!!!

Life was easy when we were in high school, nothing to worry except getting called to the assembly or being caught doing stuff which teenager weren‘t suppose to do. I find that after the high school period, when teenagers take their first step into the college life, they do not aware that their decision will affect greatly on their future if they choose wrongly. Most of the student enters the college with either short term mind set or usually base on the influence of other. Back then, I was naïve too, because I thought that since, IT in Malaysia start blooming and I thought that by the time I finish my college period, I might at least land in an IT job. I was lucky now but how about the rest of the graduates that still looking for one. However, I find it weird, in programming line, do people look for people that is good in programming skill or more likely, communication skill. Last year, I and my best friend got an interview at this software house. If we were to compare, his programming skill was way better than me but I on the other hand speak better English than him. However, I never knew that during the interview, the people favor me over my best friends. However, I got the job and lost a best friend. Anyway, most of my friends have been working for 2 years by now, but I find it ironic because their problem were never and issues to me. The other day, I met this friend and she told me that she is scare with what she does and that lead me to wonder. She works as an agent in an insurance company where she has to make deal with hotel or other entertainment business. To her, she loves her job but not as challenging as she wanted it to be. However, she mention that compare her job with the rest of my other friends, she start to worry because my other friend seem to work 24/7 and there might be a comparison later which by the way might get tense in some simple mind people. I dunnu, I find it stupid to actually compare whose job is better, whose job is tougher, who get the highest salary. My goodness, to think that people who once my friend and work for like 2 years now and still can think so childishly. So what, I mean, the way I see it that, we all enter the same course in college, but truthfully, how many did get a job regarding to what we study. Heck, I even fail my degree but I don‘t see myself as much loser as them. I pity them. Anyway, for those fresh graduate, I do really hope that you guys can find what you guys desire, not because of F***ing excuse where you guys will regret later.