Caught in the Jam!!!

Finally, the moment of truth has come. I been working non stop like some crazy-ass machine and finally my module finished and this weekend, I‘m going to party like hell. Everything was according to my plan, accept for the part when I drive out from my house, the traffic was like hell. It is bad enough that I am not that familiar with the road itself, I end up taking the wrong turn and end up at the same traffic jams. What pisses me off was of all the planning and wrong turn, I end up making one big turn and still end up nowhere. I should have know better to stay at home because weekend plus shopping carnival, what was I thinking? Anyway, got into the shopping complex and the old familiar scent of shopping complex welcome me and I never felt so happy. I start hunting for cloths but it would seem that most cloths are already out of stock and out of size for me. I been running up and down and all I got was a piece of lousy working cloths. Not to mention, I was up to watch Tom Cruise latest flick call Collateral but not up to stand-in-line buying the ticket. For the first time, I was stuck in the middle of crowd which you can feel the heat, sweat and by the way, not pleasant at all and totally out of my expectation. What I will usually do was to go all the way to the booking counter to give fake 6 digits number and cheat my way trough to my movie ticket but now, it seem that they have block all the booking counter. Obviously they wanted to avoid people like me. So I end up stuck with decent people that have all the serenity in the world to buy a piece of lousy ticket. Anyway, after 30 minute of standing torturing my ass because, I been sitting too long while working that I can‘t even stand straight for like 15 minute, I got my ticket and went enjoy my movie. Lucky thing the movie was superb and out of my expectation that Tom Cruise‘s acting was totally different from all his previous film. Anyway, although my weekend doesn‘t turn out as I wanted it to be, but at least it is half enjoyable and doesn‘t need to put the any stress on. Well, it would seem that people that work will face this kind of tension or stress, but it is good to know that after all the hard work, there is some reward waiting in the end.

People are like Stone which need to be Push!!!

I find it ironic because of all the sudden; I come across with some of my few old friends and we go yada-yada and do a quick summary of what-up with our so called pathetic life. The No.1 question which I been dying hearing from them are “What are you doing right now?“ and if you answer “Programmer“, they will follow up with question like “What language do you used?“ and then if u answer them either one of the most happening language in the market right now, they will go totally gaga and awe at the thing you do. If they happen to be a programmer too plus doing some old style programming language, they will say how lucky you are because you got to do the hip and hap programming language and switch to sad little mode of how unlucky of them which by the way doesn‘t have that chance to learn. Not as if I find the language that I learn is as any hip or hap but I always start pulling my hair off dealing with this language. Anyway, what intrigue me was, when I ask them that why not learn themselves since they admire the language so much. Why does it have to be “Give“ only we “Take“? Why not we “Own” it? Thing such as programming doesn‘t need people to push only then will we learn, if you really have the heart or the initiative to learn programming, then there should be no other excuse. I ask my friend, what they usually do when they are not working and they answer such thing as rest, partying, sleep, play games and load of shit. Why not just take that time and learn programming? I might not enjoy programming that much but at least I took my time learning it and doesn‘t complain about it. We are not some cold hard stone which only be move when people push us. There will be load of opportunity in the future, but the questions are not, will you be getting that opportunity but will you be ready for it and grad it, not waiting it to drop from sky.

Why Act When We Are Acting All Along!!!

Living in a life where the world itself act as a center stages and we as actor/actress play our part to build a complete scene that somehow resolve around us. Looking from different angle, we will notice that everyone around us play an important roles that somehow trigger the very fabric of our existence and how each soul that never knew one another but somehow tied in a single string that trip each other up without both knowing it. However, if living in a world where we are all acting, when will be the time when we will be ourselves? Why do we have to pretend to be someone else or even act? Are our lives so dull until we are trap in a prison of well written script where every single movement is being defined? Having people act around you was blur-ish enough and the one thought that always provoke each and every one of us was to ever consider if there is any M.O behind their every action. Some actions were just plain stupid and easily noticeable but what can I say, they look so proud of themselves. As if they won best male/female actor/actress of the year. What a “Drama Queen”! However, it is somehow hilarious that when we truly acted ourselves, we somehow being accuse being a pretender. It this ever occur, well then… we must be a very good actor. I have friend that act around and pretend being a good-goody people where else I was so blinded by the fact that he is being his true self behind my back and I was too busy or ignorant to turn back. Anyhow, if you feel like people are acting in front of you, fell free to just turn back on them. You might never know that the truth is just way right behind you?